I am a periodic gambler. I can be very involved for two-to-three months with gambling, and at some point, I don't have an interest in it for months. Then, the urge comes back and the cycle starts again.
I think it is not a problem to gamble. It is how you act and think after a win or loss. My issues are as follows:
If I win, I think I should have bet more or I should have bet another game with my win to increase the output.. Also, if I can win, I should be able to win again without much issue.
If I lose, I get angry with myself. I tell myself I shouldn't be doing this. Then in a short period of time, I am back at it. Also, the untintelligible thought of winning the huge losses back in s hort period of time is always there.
Occasionally, I have won it back, or a part of it. I have stopped before when I won it back, and I have kept going and loss it again or loss more. I think it is not a case of will-power or lack of money, but the sense if my mind is in the strong part of my gambling cycle or not.
For instance, when I have won it back and stopped, I was getting bored and tired with gambling. I stopped, but at the time, I told myself that it was because I conquered my gambling and knew when to stop. When I have won it back and kept going, I was in the midst of the cycle of where the excitement was still there.
I am still working on why I start gambling. It usually coincides with the beginning of football. Is it because I think instead of researching stocks to invest money in, I already have good knowledge and I should use that to try to get a bigger payout than stocks? Is it because I do it online and I don't see the money actually transfer from my hands to the cashier? Is it because I consider my life somewhat boring and don't have any current hobbies, and this is the way I can fill the excitement? This may be it since if I am involved in something else like a personal hobby or sport, I don't think about gambling. However, it could be the addictive part of my brain becomes addicted with the new hobby, but it doesn't seem as bad since I'm not losing $12K on credit cards in three months.