I decided to see if sharing my gambling problem would help me. I am so desperate. ..I have tried repeatedly to quit...the longest I have gone in the last couple of years is about 2 weeks. Right now it has been 10 days and it is all I can think about...hence my post. I banned myself for 2 years but that didn't work either.
I am about 150K in debt and everything is crumbling around me, my marriage, my kids, work, everything. If i don't think about gambling to escape it all (the only place where everything truly goes away) then I think about killing myself because it seems the only way out. If I didn't have a family I would.
I feel like I have destroyed my life and it won't ever be put back together. I know this is the drama queen in me (or so I tell my girls) but it feels so hopeless and I feel so bad all the time, I just dont know how much longer I can do it.
It is horrendous but sometimes I feel like the only place I get relief is the casino---pretty (*&^ stupid because that is why I am in this predicament. Anyway, thanks for letting me unload.