I had a relapse

I had a relapse yesterday. It started innocently with an invitation from a friend to go to the casino. I knew it wasn't a good idea from the start and had no intention of gambling but once I got there, I couldn't resist. I felt so guilty aftwards. I have lost much more than $70 before but the idea of doing it again is repulsive.

It's becoming old news. Goals, dreams, and self-esteem are lost when one gambles.

I apologize to myself. I have no one to blame but myself.

Honesty, Friday September 17, 2004
04:07 PM EDT


Be as hard on yourself as you need be and take it as another lesson that the only way to avoid the bet is to avoid the same places you used to go and the activities you used to do.

One day at a time !!!