How is Everyone.


Hi Stacey, Ann, and Bach and anyone else who is reading. I was just checking in to see how everyone is doing. I felt kind of bad about my last message and I haven't seen anything posted since I replied. I just didn't want to come across and insensitive to Ann or Bach. I feel really bad that you had a slip, and I felt awful about my slips. It just seemed like everyone was doing so well and I was really struggling. Another scary thing I noticed about my last two slips were that I felt so much more out of control, almost like I was rebelling against it all. I spent more and risked more than before.... I can't do this anymore, I am so close to not being able to keep it a secret from loved ones. I went out and read some more information about gambling addiction on the internet. I am thinking of going to one of the larger Cities around where I live in Oregon and attending a gamblers annonymous meeting. Well I hope all is well with everyone, I am having a quiet gambling free weekend. But I sure do feel like this addiction has a hold on me and I hope I can hold in there, it seems amazing to me that Bach went 6 months without gambling or that this could go on for years if I don't do something about it. I have a daughter who is going to be starting College in two years and my Credit Score is so messed up, I don't know how I'll explain not being able to help or how I will feel not being able to help as much. I feel like I've lost enough to pay for years of her tuition and I'm sure that I have, I need to let go of that and put it in the past. I read on the internet that diaries are very helpful in finding out what your triggers are and in helping you not to give in to them. I feel like this is a diary of sorts. But I'm going to give it a try. Take care everyone and please check in soon and let me know how you are all doing.

Karen


Hi Karen,   I've been

Hi Karen,

 

I've been keeping busy with school and life. It hurt to lose that $700 as every dollar counts when you're a student. I could have bought a new computer with that money. I guess all the assignments and mid-terms really got to me. I was weak for giving in. I'm only human. But I should have taken $300 and taken a short trip somewhere to escape instead of using the casino.

You are right, keeping a diary does help. I'll be writing in my diary soon.

How's everyone else doing?

Bach.


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back from travelling

Hi Gang,

Just came back from seeing my son at college.  I was surprised how many students are gamblimg on line and elsewhere.  The new law has helped curb that, but where theres a will theres a way. 

Don't worry about the slips...it happened...now just let it go.  The most important moment is RIGHT NOW.

Aloha!

Scotty